The Never Ending Story

Yesterday I had a mini internal freak out.  I was exercising, doing some abdominal work and I realized, “Holy crap!  I will never not have to do this in order to feel well in my body, mind and spirit.”  What was frightening was that it made me see that subtly, subconsciously, I had been holding on to some fantasy that there would be some moment, some perfect precipice, wherein afterward I would just permanently feel okay.  This is a serious yet very common delusion.  Though my intellect clearly understands the ridiculousness of it, there was still a major yearning in my energy-body for a salvation moment.

It ain’t going to happen folks.  The work is never finished.  Even death is not final. Growth and change is constant. Sounds cliche, right?  But, most of us subconsciously hope that the next donut we eat will actually make us happy; let alone the unconscious sentiments we have about hoping and wishing that heaven is real.  But, truly, nothing is permanent and if we aren’t riding the waves of the ever-present simultaneity of living and dying then we are clinging to an illusion.

On an immediate level if we don’t actively engage with the present freshness of what is (rather than our projections based on what was or what will be) then we are selling ourselves so short.  We can forget the high folutin’ philosophy.  Practically speaking, if we don’t exercise we will get tight in the muscles, we’ll have problems with our joints and organs, we won’t digest our food well, etc.  Eventually, we’ll get sick and we may even die unnaturally from disease, full of fear.  In the meantime, we won’t be as happy as we could be, and we may not be very happy at all.

And, if we don’t meditate and pray in some fashion then we will get tight in the mind and spirit and we will suffer in untold ways.  Eventually, we will just be living in a dream world of our own creations.  Actually, we already are doing that.  But, sooner or later, the more tight we get on the inside the more our dream will become a living hell.  If we don’t pay enough attention to our “inner world” it will fade to black.  But, it will never die.  Rather, our unconscious will send us messages to wake the “f” up! Usually these messages come in the form of anxiety, depression, anger, etc.  If we continue to ignore, numb out, or deny these “issues” then they will give way to  nature’s louder wake up calls: disease, trauma, crises and tragedy.

This is not a fire and brimstone admonishment.  The news is good.  If we accept the adventure of the ever-unfolding reality of life and learn to live with an attitude of growth every moment then we will be okay with the bumps and bruises.  Growing always has pains.  But, as we continue to step into new horizons won’t life be worth living?  Isn’t it beautiful that we can grow to see everything fresh and new… like, through the eyes of a child… hmm… I think I’ve heard that somewhere before.

Though we may wish to see through child-like eyes, we need not entertain childish notions.  It is well worth examining whether or not you, also, have a conditioned belief that someday, some mysterious agent is going to make all of your problems go away.  If you have such a belief, even if deeply unconscious, it is also likely that you are ignoring lots of “stuff” that you think will just disappear if left alone long enough. Believing thusly is hardwired into a culture that is inundated with the salvation-based faiths.

But, such a belief takes the responsibility for our own wellness out of our hands. Like modern medicine that lets us believe we can just “cut it out”, the idea of permanent salvation has weakened our will to be our own doctors.  While the “savior” in its various forms has dis-empowered us from being our own ministers.  We no longer have the wisdom to heal ourselves with diet, herbs, meditations and even spells and prayers.  Intellectuals say, “that’s all ridiculous and silly. Prayer is just mental trickery at best.”  Unfortunately, the joke of their naivete is not only on them, but on all of us, because those same “smart” people are in charge of the world while the people of wisdom usually hide for fear of attack from the status-quo.

In addition to individuals losing their integrity and sense of total responsibility isn’t it possible that the salvation model is not true and that maybe we aren’t going to be saved?  Its like taking pepto bismol for eating too many hot dogs.  It may make us feel better now.  But, it is not going to save us from the fact that having heartburn means we have ACID MELTING AWAY OUR FLESH.  If we die angry or filled with regret why do we think the magic moment of death will erase a lifetime’s worth of habits? Each one of us is 100% responsible for our own well-being – body, mind and spirit.

Our view, though not salvific, is entirely spiritual.  If we do little to cultivate a deeper experience of body, mind and spirit at the very least we will not realize the full potential of life.  At the very worst, we suffer tremendously and burden others with our misfortune, sickness, depression, anger, anxiety and all the other ailments that arise from our overall selfishness.

Someone once told me that it seemed selfish to spend so much time “working on one’s self” – taking time to do yoga, meditate, etc.  I see it differently.  We all have a responsibility to each other to do everything we can to be healthy and happy.  If we are happy and healthy we will be better friends, family members, workers, and citizens of humanity.  Real health and happiness makes us more willing to engage, more eager to connect, more wise in our choices, more willing and more able to care for others.  Generosity is a natural quality for a healthy human being.  It is when we are sickly, depressed, anxious, jealous and angry that we are selfish and others must care for us.  Our energy is so constricted and deplete in these states that we can’t afford to share it with others, and mostly, we don’t want to.

Natural Wisdom for Optimal Health and Happiness is our motto.   We see it as a duty and a privilege to live according to these principles, not only for our own benefit… but, always and only for the benefit of all.  Benefiting all, or at least actively intending to benefit the most possible, is the driving force of Energy of Mind: A Sauhu Therapy.  Of course, it doesn’t mean pleasing everyone.  Sometimes what is best for many may upset more than a few.  But, we must each look at the expanse of our life and assess: how can I be the best I can be?  It starts with a healthy body, which is to say, a happy mind.

Wishing us all freedom from clinging to the world of objects, including especially our concretized ideas of self.

Sincerely,

Energy of Mind: A Sauhu Therapy